Chapter 9

Akash entered the ward with the doctor. Arnav was not ready to leave khushi. He was continuously pleading, shouting at her to talk to him once but she just stared at him blankly. Not even one emotion flickered in her eyes. No anger, no pain , not even hurt , absolutely nothing. She continued to stare at him .

“Mr. Raizada please leave from here and wait outside while i check the patient.” Doctor turned to akash. “Mr. Raizada , take Mr. Jha outside and get her checked. She is not in a good condition here.” Akash nodded.”Bhai..??” He looked at his brother who was not leaving his eyes from khushi. “You leave with di akash . I am staying here.” Akash looked at him with worried eyes. ‘Don’t know what more bhai have to face’ he thought as he remember all the hardship his cousin brother had faced since his childhood. Akash left with anjali sobbing silently on his shoulder.

“Mr. Raizada it will be good if you wait outside.” Doctor tried once again. Arnav’s anger rose instantly. “I said I am not leaving my wife. Now check her. I am her husband and i am not going anywhere leaving my wife.” he yelled at the doctor.

Doctor immediately started checking khushi, frightened of ASR’s wrath. The whole hospital knew that this Ruthless business tychoon’s wife was struggling for her life last night and he was a raging bull ready to attack whoever came in his way.

All the doctors knew about the threat he gave to the other doctor last night and everyone knew that if something happened to his wife he will surely shut this hospital down with a single snap of his finger.

“What happen to her..?? Why is she not responding to me..??” Arnav asked when the doctor finished checking her. He kept his face straight but only he knew what he is feeling right now. He felt he may break down any minute but he cannot, not when his khushi needed him. ‘Need you’ his mind scoffed . ‘She is is in this state because of you. She doesn’t need the one who is responsible for her state.’

“Mr. Raizada as we know that your wife tried to commit suicide it shows that she is not emotionally stable. Sometimes human brain shut itself in its defense , to protect itself after an emotional breakdown. That is what happened to your wife. She had shut herself. As we always consult psychiatrist for suicide attempt cases, which also goes to Mrs. Raizada. She will have her sessions with psychiatrist daily and she will start opening up…” .With every sentence arnav’s last thread of strength was breaking. His heart was beating so fast, all he could hear was his heart’s loud thumping. “…The psychiatrist will surely do her work but family’s love , support will help her more to be normal once again. Her first session will be in the evening Mr. Raizada .” Doctor informed him.

“She will talk, doesn’t she..??” Arnav asked shakily. “Of course Mr. Raizada” Doctor smiled at him. “..but i can’t tell you in how many days . It could take weeks or months also. Now if you excuse me .”
Doctor left.

Arnav stared at khushi’s eyes , he tried hard to find life in them but he saw nothing.

His heart clenched painfully at the sight in front of him. She was continuously staring at him unblinking. He sat on the bed beside her, cupped her face in both of his palms tenderly. He stared right in her eyes and whispered softy. “Khushi.” She blinked. Arnav’s eyes filled with tears. It is the first time she blinked. All this she was staring unblinkingly at him. It was small response but at least he got her to respond, even if it was just blink of the eye.

“Please talk to me” he said softly. She didn’t respond. He realized the consequences of his actions. He was about to loose love of his life because of all the vile words he had thrown at her. “I am sorry khushi .” he chocked out the words. Her eyes got moist. Pain reflected in her eyes for a fleeting moment but she blinked and it was back to blank. “No, no no please don’t shut me , please.” He whispered , a lone tear escaped from his left eye, fell on her face, below her eye right eye trailing a wet path from her cheek down to the pillow. It was like she was crying with him.

Arnav gently wiped tear and kissed her forehead softly. She closed her eyes at his touch. Arnav noticed this and his Heart jumped with joy. She is responding. Arnav vowed that he will bring the old khushi back, no matter what.

Payal with amma and buaji entered the room. They immediately rushed towards khushi. He backed away to give them the space . He just hope if not him then surely her family will be successful in evoking some emotion in her lifeless form. Payal held khushi’s hand tightly. “Khushi , see your jiji is with you. ” But khushi was only staring at arnav.

Buaji and amma also trid to get a response from her but failed. Arnav frowned. She was not looking at her family .

She was constanly staring at him with blank eyes . Payal noticed the line of gaze of her little sister and then she knew what she has to do. Its time.


Chapter 8

“Arnav snapped his head towards the man he loathed with his whole being. The red colour of his blood shot eyes become more prominent due to the anger which rose inside him at the sight of this man. He watched as shyam walked towards him with a look of utter sadness on his face but he can very well see the glint of anger in shyam’s eyes.

Shyam stood in front of arnav , sadness looming on his face. Arnav stood up fast,grabbing shyam’s collar ,pushed him to the front wall. His eyes contained unbound fury for this pathetic excuse of a man. “How dare you come here..??” Arnav spat out in a low threatening voice, tightening his grip on shyam’s collar.

It took few seconds for shyam to recover from this sudden action of arnav. He quickly put up his mask.”What are you doing saale sahab . You are getting me wrong , i only came to lend you my support. I got to know from Rani sahiba about khushiji’s condition.” Something snapped inside arnav listening khushi’s name from his mouth.

“How dare you to have affair with her.” He gripped his neck. Shyam chocked out his words, trying to free his neck from arnav’s grip.”Saale sahab…it was a mistake…believe me…i..i am changed”

“You better stay loyal to my Di if you know what is better for you or i’ll see that you curse every single breath you take and wish to die but even death will not come to you.” Arnav warned him, tighten his hold on his neck for once then freed him.

Shyam stood against the wall ,catching his breath ,rubbing his neck to sooth the pain. He smiled wickedly. Ofcourse saale sahab , i will be loyal but not to you Di but to my khushiji and i will see what you can do to stop me.

“Get out…” Arnav said. “But saale sahab, i..” Arnav interrupted him. ” I said get the hell out of here…” Shyam left from there. Arnav punched the wall “Bloody motherf**ker”


“Chotte…” Arnav turned. Anjali noticed the tiredness, the relief, and something else which she could not decipher. ‘What is going on in his mind ‘ She thought. Arnav felt anjali’s Scrutinizing gaze and averted his eyes.

“Bhai , how is khushiji now..??” akash enquired. “She is out of danger now as i ‘ve told you earlier. She is unconscious ,doctor said that she will gain consciousness after some hours.” Arnav informed.

“Chote, come with me to the cafe, lets get you a coffee. You must be tired. Akash you stay here till then.” Anjali said looking at arnav.

Arnav knew that his di will ask some questions to which he doesn’t have any answers. But he have to face them nevertheless. So he quietly followed his di to the cafe. They sat ,anjali ordered two coffees for both of them. They sat in silence. Arnav was waiting for his to break the silence and anjali thinking of the ways to put her thoughts in front of arnav.

“Chote..”anjali started.”…you remember what you said to me , the time when khushi was being operated.”

Arnav was hesitant. He does remember the things he said but not all of it. “ don’t know what are you talking about di.” Anjali sighed.”You can’t lie to me chote. I know you remember and no don’t try to deny it.” anjali said as he opened his mouth to say. “…you were accusing yourself for her state chote. Why..?? Why would you ..?? Have you said anything to her..?? Did you two fought in gupta house..?? But what happened that she took such a step chote.”

Arnav turned his head ,not knowing what to say he have no idea as to what he could tell to his di, that his wife was having affair with her husband..??

Anjali turned to his face towards her. “Look at me chote and tell me what really happened between you and khushi. For god sake chote. Your wife tried take her life. We could have lost her.”

Arnav closed his eyes in pain.”Believe me di . No one know this better than me that i could’ve lost her. But please i..i cant tell you anything now di. We should concentrate on khushi.”

“But chote..” Arnav interrupted her. “Please di..”

“Get one thing straight chote that what happened between you two if you don’t solve it then you will surely loose her in future and this time for forever.” she said this and left from there leaving arnav with the thought that scare him the most.

‘You will loose her and this time for forever’ Anjali’s words echoed in his ears. No i will not let this happen. I will never loose her..never ever and this is my promise to myself.

“Bhai..!!” Akash called him from cafeteria’s door. He turned. “Bhai, khushiji is awake now.” Arnav felt his heart would burst in joy. Arnav left with him to see her.

Akash entered first. Arnav was hesitant to enter , not knowing what he would see. He heard akash calling out di in worried voice. ‘What happened’ he thought. He pushed open the door and entered, there he saw his di crying and akash trying to control her. Then he saw the reason behind his di’s tears. Khushi , just staring at di unblinkingly, not emotion on her face , eyes dead. As she was in other world, just lying there lifeless, nothing reached her ears. Di’s cries were futile.

She just lay there, motionless. His heartbeat stopped, he was feeling suffocated, breathing heavily ,he staggered back causing the door to close. His body slid down the door, he stared ahead at khushi or the remains of the girl named khushi that lay there.

The sound of shutting of the door caught akash’s and anjali’s attention. Anjali freed herself from akash’s hold and walked towards arnav.


“What did you do to her arnav.” she shouted at him. Akash stared at anjali and arnav in utter shock. He never ever saw anjali in anger and he first time in his life heard anjali calling arnav by his name.

Anjali grabbed his arm and pulled him up, dragged him towards khushi. “Di what are you…” akash tried to intervene but anjali cut him off. “Stay out of it akash.” Anjali pulled arnav forward. “See arnav and tell me who is she..?? Do you know her. No she is not khushi, she the khushi i know. What have you done to her chote..?? Tell me WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO HER…!!??” Anjali shouted, shaking him. She grabbed the bedside table for support, akash seeing this rushed towards her and sat her down on the chair. “Relax di, please!”

Arnav at khushi ‘s face, white as the sheet of paper, lost all of the blood,lifeless eyes. “Khushi…” he whispered.

No response…

“Khushi…!!!” a little more loudly.

No response…

He grabbed her shoulders. “Talk to me khushi..!!” he said shaking her, but she kept staring at him.

“Talk to me dammit.” he shouted at her. Tears were flowing out of his eyes.

“Bhai, stop it. I am calling the doctor.” akash left.

“Please talk to me khushi..please.” arnav whispered.

Chapter 7

“Rani sahiba..??” Now what is the problem of this woman, always crying , clinging to me like a small child.

Pure relief washed over Anjali’s face as she saw who had come. Payal tried very hard to keep her face straight, not wanting the disgust she feel for this man reflect on her face.

Anjali rushed towards shyam as fast as she could with her limp leg and hugged him with all her might, crying very badly. “Thank god you’ve come. You don’t know what happened here.”

‘Must be she had some bad dream about me, silly woman’ shyam thought with disinterest. “Rani sahiba, why are you crying..?? See , i am fit and fime, standing in front of you.”

Anjali broke the hug.” No, you don’t know what happened here. Khushiji…khushiji…” ‘What happened to khushiji?’ Thought shyam but didn’t ask anjali. “…she tried to commit suicide shyamji…she…she is in the hospital and chote…chote…” Not able to speak she broke down in shyam’s arms.

“What..??” Shyam shouted, his eyes wide in disbelief. He jerked anjali back from him, pure horror reflecting on his face. “What are you saying rani sahiba..?? Why would she do that..??”

Anjali thought that he is so panicking as he cared for this family but payal very well understood his each and every reaction.

Nani and anjali told him all the happenings. “Good that you are here damadji. We and most importantly anjali bitiya needed your support in this difficult time.” Nani said. But shyam didn’t listen to anything. He feld rage so dangerous that he could kill his dear saale sahab right at this moment only.

“Rani Sahiba , i am going to the hospital ,saale sahab needs me .” saying this he left for the hospital.

Arnav stood in front of the window, looking at the sky with full moon spreading its light on earth. Everything outside looked so peaceful with moon light making everything divine. He watched zillions of cars, vehicles moving on the roads, the lights of some vehicles fell on the window, making its way through the glass and illuminating his face for a fraction of second, making his dead eyes shine. Although the outside world was moving but for him , the world stood still and the only sound which he heard was the ‘beeping’ sound of the machine which assures him every second that khushi’s heart is beating , that his khushi is alive,is with him, breathing the same air as him and its the only thing he wants to know and needed to know this time…nothing else, nothing else mattered to him.

As he stood staring outside, his mind drifted back to the last conversation he had with khushi.

“YOU DON’T HAVE A CHARACTER” his own words came back to hit him on the face. He closed his eyes in pain. He put his head on the cold glass of the window. Its coolness spreading on his aching forehead like a balm soothing the ache ,but it didn’t help him to stop the memories of the terrace on which khushi tried to commit suicide, to come to him squarely on his face, showing him his own cruel words, his own words resounding in his ears and he put his hands on his ears in an attempt to block them but failed miserably.

Arnav walked back with slumped shoulders to the bench and sat with a thud. He rested his head on the wall behind and closed his eyes deep in thought.

‘My words, my accusations, disgracing her dignity, her pride, i butchered all those with my cruel words. Shattered her dignity till she doesn’t even have a fragment of her dignity within her. I killed her with my words. I pushed her so far that she tried to destroy her life. The girl who always had never say die spirit , tried to take her life, all because of me. I destroyed her completely. Even if she loved shyam you had no right to strip her off her dignity like this Arnav Singh Raizada.’

Arnav put his head on his hand leaning forward. “I am sorry khushi ” he whispered in air. A lone tear escaped from his left eye making its way his cheek to his chin and ultimately fell down on the floor making a
small wet spot.

Shyam stood in the hallway , watching arnav with seething eyes. ‘Arnav Singh Raizada ,this time you’ve gone too far . I know that you are behind this. You forced my khushiji to take such drastic step. You tried to take my love from me Saale sahab . I will not spare you. I will take everything from you.’

“Saale Sahab” Shyam gritted his teeth.

‘My words, my accusations, disgracing her dignity, her pride, i butchered all those with my cruel words. Shattered her dignity till she doesn’t even have a fragment of her dignity within her. I killed her with my words. I pushed her so far that she tried to destroy her life. The girl who always had never say die spirit , tried to take her life, all because of me. I destroyed her completely. Even if she loved shyam you had no right to strip her off her dignity like this Arnav Singh Raizada.’

Arnav put his head on his hand leaning forward. “I am sorry khushi ” he whispered in air. A lone tear escaped from his left eye making its way his cheek to his chin and ultimately fell down on the floor making a
small wet spot.

Shyam stood in the hallway , watching arnav with seething eyes. ‘Arnav Singh Raizada ,this time you’ve gone too far . I know that you are behind this. You forced my khushiji to take such drastic step. You tried to take my love from me Saale sahab . I will not spare you. I will take everything from you.’

“Saale Sahab” Shyam gritted his teeth.

Chapter 6

Arnav sat on the bench alone in silence. Suddenly OT door opened and the doctor came out. Arnav immediately stood up seeing him. He was not able to voice out his questions to the doctor, when the doctor started speaking urgently.

“Mr. Raizada, your wife has lost a lot of blood before even you brought her here. She has cut her writs very deeply like she in no way wanted to survive.”said the doctor.

Arnav breath stopped. ‘Khushi you cant leave me and i will make sure of it’.thought arnav.

“we have dressed her wrists, but a lot of blood have been lost. Due to this the danger of heart attack is increasing every second. We need AB- blood mr. Raizada, which is the rarest of the blood in the world and we dont have it in the hospital.”continued doctor.

Arnav gripped doctor’s collor in his hands.” You dont have the f**king blood in your hopital? Then arrange it from other hospital you bas***d and if something happened to my wife then i will make sure that
this hospital will be closed.”arnav said in low threating voice.

“Mr. raizada Please behave your self. You ask her family members or your family who could have this group blood. We have tried with other hospitals also but the result was negative. We are trying Mr. Raizada to arrange it . If you help us arranging it then we can save your wife. We dont have much time Mr. Raizada.” with that the doctor freed himself from his grip and left back to OT.

Arnav stood rooted on the spot, his mind processing so many things but only one thought stood out—- cant loose khushi. He frantically pulled out his phone and dialled N.K’s and akash’s no.

“Nannav what happened?”


Arnav took a deep breadth. He need to remain calm. Control arnav control, dont let the fear consume you. You need to be strong—for khushi.

“Nk, akash, i want both of you to arrange AB- blood…from where…i dont know , but i want the blood…ask you friends…anybody…just arrange the blood or we’ll loose khushi” his voice came out as whisper at his last words.

“No, nannav we’ll not loose khushi. Akash and i will arrange the blood ok?” Nk tried to console him.

“Yes bhai, Nk is right. We’ll just ask our friends and in hospitals, we’ll get the blood bhai …dont worry.”

Arnav ended the call. Then he dialled aman’s no. and asked him to find out if any of his employee have this blood group. As he was in call with aman then something clicked in his mind and he ended his the call immediately. He searched for a nurse and asked her to call the doctor from O.T.

Doctor came out of the O.T.”What happene mr. Raizada ? Have your arranged the blood?”

“I have O- blood group, it is universal donor ,no?”doctor nodde”So i can give khushi my blood then.”Hope shining in his eyes.

“But we cant give her your blood Mr. Raizada . You are diabetic and we cant take your blood,as it will not be good for your body” doctor tried to explain him.

“Are you kidding me? My wife is struggling to survive and you are concerned about my health. I dont care what would happen to me. Just save her dammit. Take as much as blood you want.” If he can save her life then dosen’t give a damn about himself.

“Please try to understand Mr.Raizada. We can’t risk your health for saving your wife.” he tried to explain arnav who was desperate to give her his blood at any cost.

“Just take the blood dammit, i dont care about myself” he yelled at the doctor.

Doctor knew he wont rest until he give his blood. “Ok. But we will take only that much blood only which will not affect your body in any way and with your blood we can stabilize her condition till morning only and we’ll be needing more blood.”Arnav nodded.”Nurse, take Mr. Raizada to the lab.”

Arnav came out of the lab after giving his blood. He was somewhat feeling relieved to know that nothing will happen to khushi till morning. Now they have some time to arrange the blood. He stood outside O.T door , watching khushi, laying on the bed, oxygen mask on her pale face, her breathing shallow, uneven, white bandages on both of her writs. He was scared to the core to see her like this. Afear that he never knew, settled in his heart.”Please come back to me…dont leave me khushi…i’ll do anything…please just dont leave me.” he whispered against the glass, his eyes red with unshed tears.

Aman entered the hospital corridor with a man.”ASR”he called. Arnav looked up to aman”His blood group is AB- ASR.”Arnav feld so relieved.”Go to the doctor immediately with him aman.” He turned towards the man.”Thankyou so much for doing this favour.”
The man smiled.”Its nothing sir , i am glad that i can help you to save your wife.”

Aman left with the man to the doctor. Arnav felt as if he can breath now, that now nothing will happen to khushi,she will not leave him. He called nk and akash to inform them about the blood and asked them to go home and take some rest . Now he was alone in the hospital corridor.’She did this because of me. Why did i have to tell her reason…she attempted suicide because of me. Why cant i control my anger.? Because of my anger i nearly lost her. I dont know if she loves shyam or not , but i will not allow her to leave me at any cost. Had i made a mistake ? Is khushi innocent? Yes she is innocent…his heart whispered. I have to find this out ,but now khushi is more important. I love her and i cant and will not hurt her again…no never..!!’

Anjali was sitting with payal and nani in her room. She was in deep thoughts…arnav’s words kept repeating in her mind. What did he mean by ‘he did this to khushi.’? What has he done to her that she have to take this step. Her chain of thoughts broke by a voice which she was craving to hear , whose support she badly needs.

“Rani sahiba.”

Chapter 5

Nk sat quietly beside arnav on the floor waiting for him acknowledge his presence. When Arnav didn’t acknowledge his presence for the 5 minutes, he stood up and stand in front of arnav and kneeled down in front of him, kept his hands on arnav’s knees and came face to face with arnav. That is when he saw arnav’s face for the first time clearly and Nk was terrified to see such hollowness in arnav’s eyes . His eyes had haunted look and were red as tears didn’t flow out of his eyes.

When Nk came face to face with arnav , his unfocused eyes focused on NK’s face slowly and he blinked his eyes slowly and a lone tear escaped from arnav’s eyes. NK wiped his tear and gently put his hand on arnav’s shoulder. “Nannav, mere bhai everything will be alright . You don’t worry.”said Nk to bring arnav out of his state of shock. ‘If we didn’t get khushiji back what will happen to nannav. He will not be able to live.’thought Nk.

Nk’s words registered in arnav’s numb mind slowly and everything came back to
him like a flash of lightning.

Khushi in bathtub…

Bathtub full of blood…

Khushi’s blood…


Arnav immediately hugged Nk , his whole body was shaking with fear. Nk hugged him back immediately after he get over with initial shock.

“N..N..Nk p..p..please save khushi. You…you are her friend…please her…I cannot live without her…please i am begging you…save h..her please…I’ll die without her Nk…i’ll die ” arnav whispered desperately.

Nk rubbed arnav’s back to calm him down but he was shaking badly with every passing second and was pleading to him again and again to save khushi.

“Nannav nothing will happen to khushiji believe me.” But it fell deaf on arnav’s ears. When arnav didnt calm down , Nk broke the hug and held his shoulders tightly and shook him badly. “Nannav listen to me. Khushiji needs you Arnav Singh Raizada not your corpse. Do you understand Arnav.” Nk shouted at him. Arnav immediately stopped his mumbling.

Everybody was stuned to see Nk shouting at arnav and Nk first time addressed arnav by his name, not nannav. Everybody rushed towards them . Anjali was about to stop Nk when akash put his hand on her shoulder to stop her. Anjali turned back to see akash and he shook his head in no and indicated with her head to see Nk and arnav.

When anjali saw arnav and Nk , she realised that Nk is doing the right thing. She could see arnav coming back to his senses.

“Arnav, arnav look at me, are you listening to me. Your khushi needs you. Do you understand what i am saying ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA.” shouted Nk.

Arnav stood up. “Yes my, my khushi needs me. I cannot leave her alone, when she needs me. ” he mumbled. ‘I am Arnav singh raizada. I am always in control of myself and most importantly khushi needs me.’ thought arnav. He rubbed his face with his palms and when he opened his eyes, he was not the arnav they all saw some minutes ago, he was Arnav Singh Raizada in all his glory.

Nk smiled slightly seeing his brother back and hugged him.

Arnav saw the state of his sister.”Akash you take di, nani and mami back home. It is not good for them to be here.” said arnav.

“Of course bhai.”

“But chotte you need us…” said anjali but arnav interrupted her.

“Di, i am fine. Don’t worry about me.”


Arnav turned to look at garima and noticed that babuji was not with them. “Aunty, babuji is alone at home??”



“Woh beta , happyji is with him. We didnt tell him about khushi, because of his health.” replied garima.


Arnav turned to Nk. “Nk drop aunty and buaji to their home and…”garima interupted him. ” But bitwa i want to be here.”

“Aunty you should be with uncle. He is alone there and it is not good for him.” said arnav.

“Nk and akash drop them home and come back here. I will be needing you here.” said arnav in his commanding voice.

“Yes bhai.”

“Ok nannav.”

Anjali hugged arnav.”Take care of yourself chote.”
“I am fine di. You go.” said arnav.
While going out of the hospital, Nk whispered in akash’s ears.”Nannav is back to his akdoo self. ” Akash smiled. “I like him like this only and who was shouting at him some minutes ago and what was with ARNAV, where did NANNAV go at that time huh Nk?” asked akash to lighten the mood.

NK turned serious.”It needed akash.”

Akash side hugged Nk.”I know Nk bhai, you did the right thing. ”

Nk smiled. “I know, i am always right akash.”